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Just because a man lacks the use of his eyes doesn’t mean he lacks vision. (Stevie Wonder)

I close my eyes and imagine

redwoods, orchids, open seas

as another scene sneaks inside

my skull. A friend with a white cane.

****

I recall an afternoon as I ask,

“How do you remember

so many phone numbers?”

She shrugs. Instead, she says,

****

“See, my cane tells me where the

step begins.” Laughing, she grabs my arm.

“Next time. I’ll drive.” Yet, I know

she has never seen clouds, a half or full moon.

****

She knows words like red, yellow, orange.

Does she understand color the way

I comprehend infinity?

“What time should I take you

****

to the store next week?” I ask.

She answers. Gratitude wrinkles

 a smile through her mask.

“See you on Tuesday,” I say.

****

See? I think.

I’m working on it.

I open my eyes,

perhaps a tad wider.

The Pond (A Poem)

 

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Re-frame: A Poem

You are imperfect, permanently, and inevitably flawed. And you are beautiful. (Amy Bloom)

 Re-frame

 My grandchildren’s whiteboard hangs loosely from its frame, pulled too many times by small hands. 

Scribbles, playschool, a partial red coverup in green over five, seven, or more years. My oldest granddaughter

frees and cleans the open space. She attaches it to my door. Re-frame. What appears to be broken becomes new. 

The new no longer needs approval from outside. It is real, re-framed inside its own white borders.

 

The only thing worse than being blind is having sight and no vision. (Helen Keller)

My friend wears her mask over her nose, mouth—and eyes. I don’t comment. She’s blind. It doesn’t matter. I lead her to the hospital’s elevator and through registration. We wait. I suddenly realize

I left my phone in the car. I feel lost without it.

Sun shines through pale beige shades half-drawn along ample windows. The walls wear the same color and light. I try to embrace the moment. The gift of sight. The reason why I give to my friend.

But I left my phone in the car. I feel lost without it.

A medical assistant calls my friend’s name. Only patients are permitted in treatment rooms. I have time to think. To meditate while she meets with her doctor. Instead I bi-locate, tri-locate inside possibilities that will never be

because I left my phone in the car. I feel lost without it.

I find a single scrap of paper. And write. Absorb the moment. What gift is happening now? I breathe in and out. Slowly. My thoughts. Focused one moment, gone the next

because I left my phone in the car. I feel lost without it.

My friend returns. She leaves the aide’s arm and reaches for mine. Communication. Find the difference between sight and vision, want and need.

My friend and I talk. About the trivial, about memories that have lasted. “We’ve had a lot of red lights on this street,” my friend says. She is right. Aware, yet not stuck in the waiting.

My phone rests, messages on hold. Finally, I accept each bite of time. And swallow.

Kaleidoscope, mask and cell phone

Yesterday I was clever, so I wanted to change the world. Today I am wise, so I am changing myself. (Rumi)

Now that I am aware that others know suffering, joy, pain, and every other human feeling the same way, I work with softer weapons. They never hit a target and rarely claim immediate results. However, love and compassion have unexpected side effects. May those side effects explode outside the form of a poem.

first published in For a Better World

It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop. (Confucius)


Reflections of branches and trees will eventually merge with dust and mud on the gray hood of my car. Travel continues.
 

Television noise fills my brain. A game show celebrates money, the superficial, and glamour. I try to ignore the clamor and read. The written words slide into the air with the program’s artificial I-win hype. Auto repair commotion adds to the confusion.

My car needs help as it ages. I am grateful I own a car.

Finally, I am the only customer in the waiting room. I ask for a quieter program and the mute button appears from someplace behind me. I escape into the semi-freedom of flashing, soundless color. Hours pass. I notice the opening and closing of restroom doors. Basic, banal. Both personal and universal.

“Would you like to watch the news?” an employee asks.

I do and I don’t. The news feels like minor surgery without anesthesia. This station is owned by Sinclair Broadcasting. Its viewpoint is monitored. And limited.

The vote count will continue in an endless loop. I voted early. My husband and I spent election day outside the polls. Encouraging voters. Soaking in sun. Returning an occasional frown with a smile. My choices focus on opportunities—for people who don’t have them. I do not want a senseless battle; it creates war. But I don’t want complacency either.

No matter how the results emerge, I cannot give up. No vehicle, no moment, no individual shines forever.

Move on. Move up. Fall, but find the light again. And again. And again.

An old Cherokee is teaching his grandson about life. “A fight is going on inside me,” he said to the boy.

“It is a terrible fight, and it is between two wolves. One is evil—he is anger, envy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego.” He continued, “The other is good—he is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion, and faith. The same fight is going on inside you—and inside every other person, too.”

The grandson thought about it for a minute and then asked his grandfather, “Which wolf will win?” The old Cherokee simply replied, “The one you feed.” (Cherokee legend)

This year has had nothing to do with twenty-twenty vision. Not yet. Perhaps recognizing dark and light within, can help root out the angry wolves inside me. May my flame be directed into light instead of uncontrolled, destructive fire.

Reading is a discount ticket to everywhere. (Mary Schmich)

One more page. I will only read one more page. And my fingers flip through another chapter. (Of another story) Other chores have interfered lately, but the pages of a book don’t flip side-wise like a cellphone does when I lift a paperback to a different position.

The third book in my series is out. In eBook form now, a lot more convenient for traveling. The print form will appear soon. Through a new press, Petulant Child press. Happy reading wherever you feast your eyes.

Our ability to reach unity in diversity will be the beauty and the test of our civilization. My only question is, will we pass that test? (Steve Goodier)

“Hi!” my neighbor shouts.

I wave and smile. No need to say more.

He is jogging with his dog. I am carrying groceries.

Simple-world things,

no action either of us needs to remember.

The painted work of my granddaughter speaks for us.

One humanity. May I act with awareness

of both the inside and outside of anyone

who walks inside and outside

my accepting, integrated circle,

until someday all understand.

Life is defined by time and seasons. (Lailah Gifty Akita) 

Late September. Two septuagenarians in a blend-in-with-the-scene white Toyota, travel a county highway. Vehicles of all kinds, shapes, and colors join or pass. With anonymous individuals inside. Some courteous, others impatient.

Did I bring my phone? the man in the white car asks his wife. “Right here,” she answers. “Good,” he says. “I’ll call after my doctor’s appointment. And pick you up at the same mall entrance.” His voice remains soft. She smiles. She knows her limited sense of direction.

Foliage changes colors in a different time frame than traffic moves. The woman wonders when the skin on her arms developed ridges. Long parallel lines. Miniature mountainsides. Her experiences saved inside them as one season blends into another.

She walks through the mall pathways. Sees signs demanding masks. Noses over the top. Nothing worth buying. Construction penetrates her ears.

While the season waits outside. One more time.

Time, it’s been awhile

…Yup, Time, It’s Been Awhile I chose large print with the hope that these words will stay in my memory longer. I sit by the heart monitor that lets hospital staff know my heart bypass is operating A-okay. However, I feel best when I’m not thinking about it. My mind is young. Young! Since I…