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Addie and me after my fall (2)

Love, the moment and the energy of that moment, will spread beyond all boundaries. (Corita Kent)

Both the smile and the purple bruises on the side of my face, are real. I fell. Tripped over an air vent and landed on something hard enough to raise a bump the size of an extra appendage. Okay, I’m exaggerating. The bump is no larger than the average oversized walnut. The pain, however, made me think a tank had parked in my kitchen, and I’d been thrown into it.

My husband took me to the emergency room.

I was fortunate. Hematoma with no brain-bleed. I came home to heal. On St. Patrick’s Day—wearing the wrong color. Healing will take time. There are no prescriptions for patience. If there were I would ask for double-strength dosage.

In the meantime, I treasure holding my two-year-old granddaughter during a rare moment when she isn’t experimenting with perpetual motion.

“Precious child Addie, thanks for overlooking bruises and seeing me behind them. We will conquer the imaginative world again after you are rested.”

Okay, maybe I should rest a little, too.

 

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 Some of the most wonderful people are the ones who don’t fit into boxes. Tori Amos.

DEAR ELLA:
WHAT I WISH I COULD TELL YOU

My Dear Ella,
You lead our make-believe time
as we make a blue birthday cake for cow
and scoop chocolate ice cream for rabbit.
The birthday song needs only happy and birthday,
repeated with fervor, sung with heart.
I’ve often wondered if your tripled
twenty-first chromosome holds unique gifts,
including a sixth sense, compassion.
I recall a day before you learned to walk,
when you scooted freestyle along the floor.
A movie on television showed a violent scene,
reminiscent of an old crime,
different victim—me. I gasped.
You climbed into my lap
and blocked my view of terror.
Too young for words, your eyes said
what you could not. Don’t look at the screen.
Look at me.
Then, the past faded into
the beauty of your presence,
a reality lost to those who have not yet seen
more than a slant to your eyes and
delays in your motor skills.
Now, my attention returns to cow,
rabbit, snowman, and dog,
unequal in size, shape, and fabric,
equal in importance.
Today we pretend. The ordinary
opens to show the extraordinary,
above, below, and beyond
the surface of each moment.
My youngest granddaughter,
watching you be you
makes me a better person.

Love,
Grandma


In honor of World Down Syndrome Day
celebrated this past March 21

Third prize poetry contest winner Down & Beautiful 2017

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ping pong ball

Three things in human life are important: the first is to be kind; the second is to be kind; and the third is to be kind.  (Henry James)

Every blog I have written has always included either a series of related facts, often through mutual experience, sometimes in poetry form. Today I am sharing a piece of flash fiction I wrote several years ago. Fiction or poetry relays reality in ways that touches the spirit sideways, sometimes a more effective route.

The written punishment in the short-short story was a familiar one when I was a kid in the seventh grade: Write about something hollow, invisible. The Inside of a Ping Pong Ball.

I suspect the point was to keep a student quiet long enough to think and to engage his or her creativity in a useful direction. I don’t know. I was a quiet kid. On one level I wanted to try it. However, getting in trouble on purpose wasn’t an option.

I gave the assignment to a character in my imagination.

The Inside of a Ping Pong Ball

Okay, Miss Marshall. You gave me the standard punishment. Write 500 words on the inside of a ping pong ball. The essay is due tomorrow morning, Tuesday, April 17, 1956.

I admit it. I talked while you were talking. I told Helen Keith how sorry I am that her grandma died. She had a heart attack on Helen’s birthday. I sighed pretty loud while you were giving instructions about how to write our next composition. You told us to describe how we could make Wellington School a better place. We were to present our plans properly.

            “Be sure to write neatly with a fountain pen. No turquoise ink. No smudge marks. No repeating very 25 times in 25 sentences.”

            I now have another assignment. A punishment. In at least 500 words, I need to extrapolate on the inside of a ping pong ball. Extrapolate was on the new-vocabulary list last week. I hope I get points for that because I’m not upset that you didn’t understand why I interrupted you. This essay gives me a chance to explain. I know you paid for Jeremy’s prescription glasses when his parents couldn’t afford them. He didn’t keep it secret, as you asked him. You aren’t mean. So, I hope you will forgive me for getting off the subject now and then. Everything will fit inside the ball. Soon.

            How many times does a ping pong ball racquet hit a ball without denting the thin shell? Yet solid air holds it intact.

            Strange how silence can work. You asked me what I had to say. Was it that important? It worked better to keep quiet. I let your imagination go wild instead of letting you know that Helen hadn’t slept the night before. All she wanted was one more hug from her grandma.

            You see, her grandma asked Helen to hug her before she left for a party, that started in twenty minutes. Helen said she would do it the next time.

            There was no next time. Her grandma died of a heart attack.

            Helen had been smart enough to pass me a note and not open her mouth. Talking would make her cry. Crying in school is as bad as wetting your pants while writing on the blackboard.

            So, this is about emptiness again, the inside of a ping pong ball.

            And Helen finally had to fill it with words. Written words. I didn’t save them.

            Did you know a twelve-year-old could have this much to say? Air is the empty inside of something. It holds a thing together or pretends to hold it together. My mom says I grew up too fast. Maybe that is because my dad died when I was seven. I have never seen the inside of a ping pong ball. But I have an idea about how it feels. Strong in one way and lonely in another.

            My mom says that is why Helen knows to come to me.

            The boys in our class get in trouble so that they can write something funny. I suspect that if I do something that doesn’t fit the rules again, I will have a different punishment.

            I am sorry I talked at the wrong time. I am not sorry I helped Helen.

           

 

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bass violin

A kind word never broke anyone’s mouth. (Irish proverb)

Sometimes someone needs to hear about the good

he or she does, not as a reward. As an acknowledgment.

A chance to give kindness a fresh shape. Not an avalanche

of compliments. A moment of recognition, a boost.

After all, life is both sunshine and storm.

 

I won’t share the full printed note sent to my

daughter-in-law about her son, Dakota.

I don’t know the music director who

wrote it. Her words were directed to

Dakota’s mom. His mom and I are close

friends, and she shared the message with me.

The message in Essence: Dakota, is a ten-year-old, fourth-grade boy. He is learning to play the bass. And learning to play well. He works without expecting immediate gratification. Dakota also helps his fellow bass player. With whatever she needs. Dakota is a neat child. He helps clean-up after class. He doesn’t need to be asked because he is an independent thinker. 

My addition: The child has depth. I know because one day while we were collecting rocks in an old wagon, he said, “You know you won’t live forever.”I answered. “True. So, let’s enjoy the day together. Make it worthwhile.” He smiled and we continued our play. Dakota and two old, yet still-moving rocky wagons. The message from his teacher was a precious gift, but not a surprise. Dakota is a young boy with mature insight. I am blessed to call him grandson.

Peace and many kind words to all.  

 


					

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“Never believe that a few caring people can’t change the world. For, indeed, that’s all who ever have.” 
Margaret Mead


Women’s March
From Caleb’s Point of View
 
My name is Caleb. I’m ten years old.
I wear a sign that says, 
I march for my sister,
and my mom didn’t make me do it.

Great-Grandma links 
her left arm into my right. She holds a cane 
and shuffles from one foot
to the other, an offbeat rhythm
reminding me of an old-fashioned scratched CD.

Dad helps Great-Grandma from the other side.
The kind crowd gives us plenty of room.
Great-Grandma’s parents died at Auschwitz.

Our family matriarch marches 
in silence. I am only a kid, yet
the pain of her story has leaked 
into our lives. I know its depths.
Mom rushes ahead with my sister.
 
A woman nods toward my sign.
"Perhaps your sister can become president
one day." Dad and I look at one another
with the same tight-lipped understanding.

When Mom runs my sister laughs
and kicks her legs as if she could control them.
Mom pauses and waits for us to catch up.

My sister tries to rise from her wheelchair,
her legs weak as dried kindling.

She squeals with delight and flaps her arms
when she sees us.  I don’t march for my sister
to become great. I march for my sister
to be accepted for who she is.



originally publishing in For A Better World 2017
illustration made from public domain images and cut paper

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